I woke up last Sunday, April 28th. I weighed myself and found that I’d gained 7 more lbs since the last time I had weighed myself (not sure how long it had been, maybe a few weeks). I sat on the toilet (with the seat down) and thought about this situation. I decided things had gotten too far out of control. Something has to change, I told myself. I can’t live like this anymore. I feel like shit. I look like shit (in my opinion). I have to do something! I’m not one for a “diet”. I don’t like the word, it’s an ugly word. To me diet means depriving myself of all the foods I love and most likely will end in failure. No, I’m not doing a “diet”. Instead I thought about what kind of changes in my normal eating habits that I’d be willing to make.
I decided I could do without pop (soda). I drank maybe one can of pop a day. I don’t drink much water (aside from vitamin water, which I love) so instead of pop, I will drink more water. I have to have something with flavor so the vitamin water will provide that need. I usually have a large glass of chocolate milk in the morning when I take my medications. Chocolate milk is my coffee. I’m not willing to go without it, but I did compromise and drink half the glass.
As for food, I am eating most of the food I would normally eat, but taking smaller portions and not going back for seconds. I felt this would be a difficult task mostly because out of habit I would normally just eat more without thinking about it. So to tackle that obstacle, once I’m done eating I sit back and make myself aware that I’m done. I also think to myself, ‘Am I full?’ and ‘Do I really need more?’ The answer is always no and this helps me. I’m also trying to eat slower so I feel the fullness when I’m done. I do not deprive myself of the foods I love, instead I have a small portion or in the case of a candy bar, milkshake, or cake..I will only allow myself to have something like that once a week. Going completely without, I can’t do, but doing it this way, it’s definitely doable.
What I find the most interesting is that in the past I’ve always felt that I was addicted to sugar, and maybe I was, but when I became determined to lose weight I noticed that I stopped craving the sugar. It’s like I flipped a switch in my brain. I guess it boils down to mind over matter.
In addition to these changes, I have dusted off my treadmill and started walking on it for 30 minutes a day. I am happy to report that when I weighed myself this morning I have lost 10 lbs which was my goal. I have A LOT of weight to lose but I’m setting myself small goals so I can feel good when I achieve them and not feel so overwhelmed by the large number.
So that’s it! Small changes in my eating habits and getting some exercise. My frame of mind is that I’m not trying, I’m DOING! My favorite quote that I refer to often is, “You can my excuses or you can make progress, but you cannot do both”. I will make no more excuses, only progress.